“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Have you ever had a dry season in your walk with God.. Maybe more than once? Those times when you just don’t “feel it” or any clear direction like you might in other seasons? Hopefully I’m not the only one. But if I’m being honest, I’m guilty of being in one of those seasons. I know, I get it… How could that be when I’m on a mission trip! Surely this can’t be the case. But I wouldn’t be being honest if I told you differently. In all reality, that was one of my original excuses when I first told God I wasn’t going to do this (ha!) I said, “shouldn’t I wait until I really feel you, God?” You see, I couldn’t find a clear answer on what He wanted me to do this summer. No matter how hard I prayed or waited it out, I realized I was just going to have to make a decision. God won the argument against this excuse (and many others), and shocker, He’s been teaching me something about faith.
The past two weeks have been full of preparing for camp with Shawn and David (directors of the camps): painting, airing up balls, building games, cutting out decorations, and so on. I’ve been staying at the Inchaustegui’s (the missionary family’s home) before we leave for camp. After the first week, the rest of the Inchaustegui family arrived, and they have been nothing short of supporting and hospitable. I’ve also have had the awesome opportunity of experiencing the beautiful Mexican culture by going to the market, running errands, going to church, and eating the delicious food. 🙂 We’ve been able to watch some of the World Cup games which makes my heart happy. Over the past few days I’ve met some of Misión Sports Camps’ amazing and hilarious staff. They have welcomed me in with open arms (despite the language barrier)! Camp will start Monday, so if you get the chance, please pray for the kids and all involved with the camp.
The other day Shawn (the missionary leader of the camps) taught me a lesson in faith. He was telling me about how he was trying to decide what the best decision was for one of the camps, and he said he just really didn’t feel a clear answer from God. He said one of his spiritual gifts is faith, so he had been waiting it out. However, he told me he came to the conclusion that sometimes the Lord lets us decide. This spoke volumes to me because of the emotions I had been feeling (or lack there-of). God knows our hearts and our intentions. Sometimes He let’s us decide what we think is right because He believes in us more than we believe in ourselves, and He knows we will make the right decision. He wants to see if we will choose to have faith and say “yes” to something we known will grow and change us for the better. This in itself is an act of faith.
Guess what? I’m beginning to “feel it” now. That passion- that nearness. He has showed me that faith is follow-through, especially when we don’t “feel it”. It means complete and utter dependence on the God whose plans for you and me are good. Saying “yes” and stepping out in faith is the beginning of the greatest adventure that Holy Spirit wants to take us on. Regardless of what we do or don’t feel, He wants to teach us something. Relentlessly lean into God, because He WILL draw near to you [James 4:8]. So, my encouragement would be to say “yes” to Him each day, and let Him show you where He wants to take you. You don’t have to feel confident, qualified, brave, or even certain, you just have to say “yes” and watch Him do the rest, because He is a God of follow-through.