“I’m no longer a slave to fear…I am a child of God… you split the sea so I could walk right through it, my fears were drowned in perfect love, you rescued me and I will stand and sing, I am a child of God” -“No Longer Slaves” by Bethel Music
“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self-discipline. So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner.” – 2 Timothy1:7-8
When I interned with NMSI’s Child Sponsorship department last summer, I learned about how God is always with us no matter where we go on this earth and that He shows Himself when you seek Him out.
This summer, God has been reaffirming this and challenging me to step out on limbs (literally). I do not have confidence in my own abilities and, truly, it is not my own abilities that get me through situations. I cannot take credit for what my Lord does and I see Him in the moments when I am most nervous. He whispers, “trust me”, when I am crossing tree bridges with my very supporting team. He sends me friends and loving pastors who help me climb mountains and guide me down again as I trip on the uneven ground. I have never felt so dependent before, but at the same time there is a thrill coming out on the other side and saying “I’m alive and God is with me! Yesu asifiwe!”
It is easy to live in fear and to always question whether everything will be okay. It has been a mindset deeply ingrained in me for years. I have always checked, double checked, and triple checked until defining moments in life have passed. Now, I am asked to trust Him and let go of the anxieties that constantly plague me… there is nothing more scary… and freeing.
When I face my fears of crossing a tree bridge and climbing up steep terrain, I again have to remember that God got me this far and that he is still with me now. He is there when the darkness of the night surrounds me, when I am nervous about difficult conversations, when I am riding on my first piki piki, and when my future seems to dramatically change. He holds me when I do not know what to do or what comes next. “God has said ‘Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.’ (Hebrews 13:5) and He follows through on His promises.